You’re exhausted. Welcome.

Your mind feels like a knot you can’t find the ends of sometimes. Every time you try to pull the ends to untangle your mind, the knot gets tighter. Your thoughtfulness and care aren’t flaws, love. What is exhausting is having a mind that is harsh and unrelenting and scrutinizes your every move.

I’m Rachel Willimott, LCSW and these are my letters to you. A couple times a month, I’ll write about the ways we tie ourselves up in knots, the real yearnings and needs that go unanswered, and ways to live your life, on your terms.

I know these patterns intimately - I’ve lived the self-scrutiny and masking and exhaustion. This is laughable now, but 17-year-old Rachel was convinced she was in a quarter life crisis because she no longer had her entire life planned out. Now I’m a grown up with slightly less pressure on myself - and a trained therapist specializing in anxiety, ADHD, and trauma. All of my work threads back to self-scrutiny and vigilance. And I write because sometimes words on paper is how we make sense of the world.

I hope you stick around. I want this place to be like a vintage shop: lived-in, a little chaotic, and full of feeling. Pull up a chair, subscribe, say hi, and let’s see what we can create here.

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